happy birthday

i realize many things today

everything will never be the same forever

i'll change, you too

i really do miss you although i never really said that

i really do love you although i never really said that

i feel like crying when i think of you now

i feel like crying when i read your last text

i  feel like i'm going to miss you so much

i am not good at expressing my feelings

i am not good at talking

i seldom smile to others, maybe to you also

but my heart always smile

that i don't show how much i love doesn't mean that i don't love you

i really do

this is me now

i hope you'll be happy with my life later

i'll be a better man

i'll show you a better tomorrow

no,

the best tomorrow

i promised

thanks for everything

thanks for giving me life

happy birthday

" how can i still write with a broken pencil ?"

finally holiday is coming after finishing the shitty comic assignments, i'd almost gotten two sleepless night, =( damn exhausted

i hope my holiday will be nice, i need to do some research and a creative art journal for my holiday, =( damn, holiday with assignments, phew

btw good luck for those who are still fighting with assignments =p

i always feel like going to give up after every incidents, but there's always something holding myself on,

i really need help on this, but i really can't have someone to help me,

" how can i still write with a broken pencil ?"

i'm so moody now =(

violet hill

Was a long and dark December
From the rooftops I remember
There was snow
White snow

Clearly I remember
From the windows they were watching
While we froze
Down below

When the future's architectured
By a carnival of idiots on show
You'd better lie low

If you love me
Won't you let me know?

Was a long and dark December
When the banks became cathedrals
And the fog
Became God

Priests clutched onto bibles
Hollowed out to fit their rifles
And the cross was held aloft

Bury me in armor
When I'm dead and hit the ground
A love back home unfolds

If you love me
Won't you let me know?

I don't want to be a soldier
Who the captain of some sinking ship
Would stow, far below

So if you love me
Why'd you let me go?

I took my love down to Violet Hill
There we sat in snow
All that time she was silent still

So if you love me
Won't you let me know?

If you love me,
Won't you let me know?

not a very beautiful sunday

i cleaned my room after waking up this morning, it took me 1 hours to clean my room, changing bed cover and everything, damn exhausted,

but i felt relieved when i saw today's sky in the morning after finishing the cleaning duty, it was a beautiful sky, sapphire blue with lots of clouds =)

i managed to take some pictures with my camera, the sky is amazing

photoshopped image?? no, i have rarely used photoshop for image manipulating now, it's better to manipulate our view in the camera itself =p

pheww, my creative studies is still undone, the teacher is shit, her assignments also, hahaaa..

how can i manage to finish a 12-pages by tomorrow if i could only finish three a day?? 

i think i could never make it =(

also, haven't prepared for my tomorrow's presentation,

wish me luck =)

it's not a very beautiful sunday,

not until they ruin it =(

better

everything is better now, though it worsens first,

i hope it was just my feelings of insecure,

start making a move 

because my life will still go on even if i stand still now =)

=(

i'm tired of everything

bad mood strikes me always

i'm not living this live anymore

sometimes, i always think of having someone to whom i can talk to about anything, but the talk seems to be impossible because of some reasons

=(

i hope tomorrow will be better

future

hmm, i started to think of future

what major should i choose after completing my foundation class???

confusing =,=", i was actually as a graphic design student, but after several considerations, i was thinking of changing it to animation, i think animation is much more challenging than graphic design. One of my friend said that i should take graphic design-illustration, but she also told me that animation is another great choice 

now, the more i think, the more confuse i'll be =(

umm, and last monday, after submitting my photography assignments, the lecture asked me, " are you experienced in photography before?" , " i think these are the best pictures on the camera, until now lar, hahaa, not if other students show me a better photos" =p 

kinda funny to think about it, i mean, yes, i love photography, and i learn a lot from the internet and some friends, but i had only been using the camera for this 2-3 months, haha, he was seemed to be pretty amazed,, i hope he was serious with what he had just said, " keep on showing this kind of pictures for your next assignment."

haha, or should i change my major to photography??? nooo..that's not my life, i just take it as a personal hobby, haha

confuse, but pretend not to bother with it, just go with the flow =)

shit, my design studies assignment isn't finish yet, i emailed my lecturer but she didn't replied =(

and also, it's raining like hell outside =(

btw, i love today, hehe

but not until tonight =((