fell

it's like the third time i fell, deeper and harder

sometimes i'm just too afraid, for that it fades before it happens

or for that it happens in the wrong way while i was praying for it to fade

bieber

bean

sorry

when men are are wrong, men said sorry

when women are wrong, men said another fucking sorry

but I don't remember the feeling anymore

blah

How do I say goodbye to someone I never really had?

Why do my tears fall so endlessly for someone who was never really mine?

Why is it I miss someone I was never really with?

And why do I love someone whose love was never really mine?

You either let go for two reasons.... you've learned enough to want to, or you've been hurt enough you have to

You taught me how to love, but not how to stop

just because one simple sentence.. you have already killed all the reasons for me to care .. but I'm still standing here .. for one stupid reason that I still don't understand why, you can call it love

They say follow your heart.
But when your heart is in so many pieces.
Which way are you to follow?

skinned knees are easier to fix than broken hearts

Have you ever wondered which hurts more:
saying something and wishing you hadn't
or saying nothing and wishing you had?

Never explain yourself. Your friends don't need it and your enemies won't believe it.

The words that escape a friend's mouth are "I'll be there when you say you need me" but the words that are unheard from a true friend's heart are "I'll be there... whether you say you need me or not.

life

my life is simple, what make it complicated and difficult are simply my own thoughts

God Damn You're Beautiful

tomorrow soon

Hundreds of dewdrops to greet the dawn,
Hundreds of bees in the purple clover,
Hundreds of butterflies on the lawn,
But only one mother the wide world over.
~George Cooper

bye

" Never say goodbye when you still want to try

    Never give up when you still feel you can take it

    Never say you don't love the person anymore when you can't let go "

anonymous

" Goodbye is an easy word to say but try saying it to a friend. If I never knew you, I'd be safe, but half as real, never knowing I could feel. "

pocahontas

like you care

it's SUNDAY

i took some pictures at the park

cloudy day

it's boby

ayunan

horse-horsean =p

playground

pink

pink again

another pink =pp

thanks for acting like you care

the lemons of life

today was damn tiring,

i woke up, continued watching hachiko and wet my whole face after watching it, it's a very good movie =) i was impressed

started going to KL at three, arriving there at five,

i took some useless pictures at the shitty times square for almost 3 hours until i realized that i have just wasted 3 hours of my precious time there, 

and we gone back before enjoying the real time of the photo sessions, hopefully putrajaya is our next destination

but the so-called kucing bridge was god damn hard to find, and we manged to took the panoramic view opposite to the bridge because we couldn't arrive there after wandering the city

the view was amazing, this helped me bring back my mood =)

many things happened today and i started to enjoy the lemons of life =p

dolls =p

keychains =p

beers???

they were all shopping

the parking lot photo

another shot

i don't know why this shot turns out like this =D

my favourite =)

ps : special thanks to a friend

doubled ecstasy

research had driven me crazy, i tried to do all the researching, but it seemed impossible, yeah, why should i did all of them? actually it's none of my business, i had done my part.

and i'm going to KL again tomorrow for a photoshoot, hope the results will be good =)

none of the 6 car rental had their car available for tomorrow, so we're going with another friend,

my friends are all crazy b=about playing vos and o2 jam, wkaka

ecstasied, now that you've doubled it, could you mind triple-ing it? i'll try =p

earthquaked =(

IOI mall

we went there to watch the crazies today. it was still in premiere but it is extremely not crowded, the movie itself is only watched by less than 20 people along with us. it's very quiet in the theater

also ioi has such a great movie theater, it was a nice place to watch movie

the movie we watched sucks a lot, now i know why nobody wants to see this movie, the story is really sucks although the idea is good, it was a thrilling movie about a pandemic virus that cause people to turn crazy and killed others.

my head feels like being earthquaked when i gone home =(

no a good day

@puchong utama while waiting for the bus

to IOI shopping mall

random shot of strangers - silau =p

vincentya lie

the city light

to desaria

the bus

The Moment

the moment by helen govinna

like this video so much

fishing in an empty pond

STOP !!!

i wish i could, but everytime i tried to, something held me on

now it's like fishing in an empty pond

again, i wish i have someone to whom i could talk everything too, but again, it's impossible =(

it is....

" the more i try not to, the more i seem to care

and the more i say i'm fine, the more i just pretend "

" misunderstanding the sweetness of a person might hurt you when you thought it was love "

" nobody will ever understand me but i love the people who try "

" just because i'm happy doesn't mean i have to smile & just because i smile doesn't mean i'm happy "

" if you love someone, tell him or her. forget about the rules or the fear of looking ridiculous. what is truly ridiculous is passing up on an opportunity to tell someone that your heart is invested in him or her "

" when people started to damn you, DAMN THEM TOO "

" love is a lamp, while friendship is the shadow. . . .when the lamp is off, you will find the shadow everywhere. . . .friend is the one who can give you strength at last "

happy birthday

i realize many things today

everything will never be the same forever

i'll change, you too

i really do miss you although i never really said that

i really do love you although i never really said that

i feel like crying when i think of you now

i feel like crying when i read your last text

i  feel like i'm going to miss you so much

i am not good at expressing my feelings

i am not good at talking

i seldom smile to others, maybe to you also

but my heart always smile

that i don't show how much i love doesn't mean that i don't love you

i really do

this is me now

i hope you'll be happy with my life later

i'll be a better man

i'll show you a better tomorrow

no,

the best tomorrow

i promised

thanks for everything

thanks for giving me life

happy birthday

" how can i still write with a broken pencil ?"

finally holiday is coming after finishing the shitty comic assignments, i'd almost gotten two sleepless night, =( damn exhausted

i hope my holiday will be nice, i need to do some research and a creative art journal for my holiday, =( damn, holiday with assignments, phew

btw good luck for those who are still fighting with assignments =p

i always feel like going to give up after every incidents, but there's always something holding myself on,

i really need help on this, but i really can't have someone to help me,

" how can i still write with a broken pencil ?"

i'm so moody now =(

violet hill

Was a long and dark December
From the rooftops I remember
There was snow
White snow

Clearly I remember
From the windows they were watching
While we froze
Down below

When the future's architectured
By a carnival of idiots on show
You'd better lie low

If you love me
Won't you let me know?

Was a long and dark December
When the banks became cathedrals
And the fog
Became God

Priests clutched onto bibles
Hollowed out to fit their rifles
And the cross was held aloft

Bury me in armor
When I'm dead and hit the ground
A love back home unfolds

If you love me
Won't you let me know?

I don't want to be a soldier
Who the captain of some sinking ship
Would stow, far below

So if you love me
Why'd you let me go?

I took my love down to Violet Hill
There we sat in snow
All that time she was silent still

So if you love me
Won't you let me know?

If you love me,
Won't you let me know?

not a very beautiful sunday

i cleaned my room after waking up this morning, it took me 1 hours to clean my room, changing bed cover and everything, damn exhausted,

but i felt relieved when i saw today's sky in the morning after finishing the cleaning duty, it was a beautiful sky, sapphire blue with lots of clouds =)

i managed to take some pictures with my camera, the sky is amazing

photoshopped image?? no, i have rarely used photoshop for image manipulating now, it's better to manipulate our view in the camera itself =p

pheww, my creative studies is still undone, the teacher is shit, her assignments also, hahaaa..

how can i manage to finish a 12-pages by tomorrow if i could only finish three a day?? 

i think i could never make it =(

also, haven't prepared for my tomorrow's presentation,

wish me luck =)

it's not a very beautiful sunday,

not until they ruin it =(

better

everything is better now, though it worsens first,

i hope it was just my feelings of insecure,

start making a move 

because my life will still go on even if i stand still now =)

=(

i'm tired of everything

bad mood strikes me always

i'm not living this live anymore

sometimes, i always think of having someone to whom i can talk to about anything, but the talk seems to be impossible because of some reasons

=(

i hope tomorrow will be better

future

hmm, i started to think of future

what major should i choose after completing my foundation class???

confusing =,=", i was actually as a graphic design student, but after several considerations, i was thinking of changing it to animation, i think animation is much more challenging than graphic design. One of my friend said that i should take graphic design-illustration, but she also told me that animation is another great choice 

now, the more i think, the more confuse i'll be =(

umm, and last monday, after submitting my photography assignments, the lecture asked me, " are you experienced in photography before?" , " i think these are the best pictures on the camera, until now lar, hahaa, not if other students show me a better photos" =p 

kinda funny to think about it, i mean, yes, i love photography, and i learn a lot from the internet and some friends, but i had only been using the camera for this 2-3 months, haha, he was seemed to be pretty amazed,, i hope he was serious with what he had just said, " keep on showing this kind of pictures for your next assignment."

haha, or should i change my major to photography??? nooo..that's not my life, i just take it as a personal hobby, haha

confuse, but pretend not to bother with it, just go with the flow =)

shit, my design studies assignment isn't finish yet, i emailed my lecturer but she didn't replied =(

and also, it's raining like hell outside =(

btw, i love today, hehe

but not until tonight =((

the last bus

yesterday was my last day using the desaria bus service, i'm now using the kipark shuttle bus service. Unfortunately they only have 4 bus trips, so i have to go to school at 8 for my 2 o'clock class, shit, damn boring, what am i supposed to do for 4 hours???

the bus service from desaria is still the best i think, neat schedule, and cheaper, i mean, now it worths the money i paid rather than the bus service from kipark, =,="

hmm, finished my draft for my design study, but i can't still figure out what kind of colours i'll be using, also, i need to think of my Y alphabet design, it doesn't fit my recent drafts submitted to the lecturer, need some inspiration =(

sunday

sunday is damn boring

sketching for my comic and photoshooting

my friend lend me a 70-300mm lens =) 

pretty nice, but not a very good one, slow focus, images created is not sharp enough =(

dandellion

dragonfly

i can't figure out what kind of insect this is

camera-ing

got back home almost at 23:00

tiring day,

starting at lowyatt plaza, i bought myself a WD portable HDD, while my friends bought camera filters and printer

then we headed to KLCC to get some shots there, it's a nice place to visit, beautiful park, cute children playing, tourists , many photographers and even couples dating =p i'm jealous.ahahahaa

leaving at 21:30 (maybe xp) , shit taxi driver, RM120 for the fare???? it's like WTF??? (dealed @ RM80)

finally arriving home at 22:00 after being tricked by the taxi driver, adding RM 20 for making some quick u-turn, (but you said you need to go back to KL and find some new way to go through cyberjaya, but why only a small u-turn ??? pheww it doesn't worth the RM20 

shit

but i found it enjoying, thanks friends =)

 

the photographers hhe

taking pictures while waiting for friend

suria KLCC

shooting

couples ♥

the kids =)

here they are

laughs

special thanks to abang fotografer hhe

good nite =)